|The spectrum of vision probably does not include seeing your soul|
This post is part II of a meditation about dancing in your safe place. As any meditation of value, it has changed my opinion about this subject of being observed as a dancer. Many of my reflections in the past have eschewed "dancing for the crowds." Although that is generally a good idea, there is in fact a spectrum of being observed. However, on both ends of the spectrum one must remain centered on one's very intimate safe place. For example, whether Pablo Casals was playing alone, in a duet, or before thousands of people, I believe this great artist could quickly find his safe place. He was confident in all settings. There are some performers who do not start from their soul but from their need to be watched. I believe that one cannot find one's soul from starting with the joy of being confident in front of the crowds, but one can start from one's soul and feel comfortable in front of crowds.
I have used the word soul, which is very problematic, because the modern mind is ignorant about the soul. I have learned (late in life) that "soul" is a very concrete part of being human. The Greeks knew this, but we modern people find it hard to define. I would have never thought of one's inner safe place as being our sense of "soul" until I started working with combat veterans as a therapist. Veterans of war often say "I lost my soul" and it means to them: "I no longer feel safe, anywhere or anytime." Feeling safe inside is what puts you in touch with your soul. Without it, you have a soul, but you are unaware of its presence. A person who does not feel safe lives like a wild animal, not knowing whom to trust and having no recollection of the tender care of others who helped you survive before going off to war or being traumatized in some tragic event in your life.
Psyche (of psychology) is "soul" in Greek. So if you want to say that finding, maintaining, and knowing about the epicenter of knowing and feeling is "psychology" instead of "the science of the soul," that is okay with me, but why hide behind big words? It seems natural to me that the study of the soul is often required course work by higher learning institutions all over the world.
Why do tangueros keep coming back to hold another person, to move to the music, to find our "zone" in which we are safe to laugh or cry? I believe it is because we want to study our soul, to know more about it. What a terrible misunderstanding it is to say, as many do, that we are "addicted" to tango. Are we addicted to the thirst to find joy? To seek the "water" of touch in a modern world which fears touch is addiction? Or is it our deprived "addictive" self that hungers after another moment in which our soul finds a moment of safety?
Feed your soul. You do not have an addiction. You have a hunger, a thirst, a basic need at the center of your psychological well being.
Spectrum from eye: http://www.sciencephoto.com/media/308365/enlarge